As I test for fourth degree black belt in Tae Kwon Do and reflect on where I am in life, as well as where I
intend to go, I keep coming back to a topic which I already addressed when I tested for first degree black
belt in Kenpo: perseverance, resilience, having an indomitable spirit. As that was seven years ago (yes,
really), and much has transpired in the interim. I am not the same person I was. That kid had only begun
to realize that much pain awaited him. Therefore, he could not realize what role the martial arts would
play in his survival of his time in the Valley of the Shadow of Death.
There is a Victorian poem written by William Ernest Henley, “lnvictus,” that goes:
Out of the night that covers me
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance,
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.
It matters not how straight the gate,
How charged with punishment the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
I find it reminds me of a crucial fact, one that my nearly twenty years of martial arts experience has
helped me to realize time and again: even when my journey has seen me walk through darkness I
cannot fathom, and so much feels beyond my control, I can control me. And sometimes that is enough.
To be sure, I certainly have cried my fair share. The despair one feels watching someone they love die
slowly, tortuously, from a disease with only one prognosis is beyond description. I recall one Easter
Sunday, I came so close to telling my mom I just could not do it anymore; I nearly refused to return to
finish the second semester of my junior year. But the words caught in my throat. In the last second, I
found I had more to give. Not much, but enough to haul my nearly broken self across the line. If it were
not for the martial arts, I doubt I would have found that little bit more. Fortunately, I have not hit such a
point since then, though there certainly have been other points of hopelessness, of emptiness, of
debilitating grief. Each time, I call upon my training. Not the physical training, but the mental. Years and
years of being asked if I wanted “one more,” of being reminded that though I may not always have total
control over my circumstances, I will always have control over something, have proven instrumental to
my ability to not only survive, but to thrive.
When Dad died, I found myself confronted with a different kind of darkness. The light that I had been
accompanying, and had been accompanying me, through the dark was no longer there, and I
profoundly exhausted. Two years, seven months, and fifteen days later, I don’t think I have quite
recovered. The martial arts have helped me through that time, as well. Were it not for the mental
training, I would not have been able to complete my master’s degree only a few months later, and I
would not have gotten to the point where I am now: Taking my story, my training, my education, and
presenting myself to medical schools for admission. Thanks to the martial arts, I will be a physician one
day, and I will accompany my patients as I accompanied Dad. Thanks to the martial arts, I know my way
in the dark. And though I cannot traverse it for them, I can be with my patients for as long as I can, to
the best of my ability.
I suppose this essay was a little different from many others (certainly from most of the ones I’ve
written). It was more of a (shortened) story. One of how the martial arts have helped me see myself
through more difficult times than I ever imagined enduring at such a young age. I am grateful to you
who helped make me the martial artist I am today. From the bottom of my heart: thank you.
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